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NOW everybody is CRAZY for korean guys... =.=
lols.
as for me,
em.. i jus think they are fine.
jus a few are handsome. YUN HO !!
SEE shuang can liao.
=)
i am not very interested with hot guys nowadays.
as i have said before:
'' shuai ge mei liang xin ''
that's wad i think.
kinda ridiculous for some of you, rite ?
lols.
i have experience black out today.
'black out' as in i almost fainted.
i was in that toilet at that time.
suddenly, everything jus went so BRIGHT.
i cant see a thing.
so i hold to both side of the walls.
trying to balance.
sat down a while, tried to stand up again.
but failed and i fall onto the ground.
stood up again. head hurts.
DAMN.
i rested a while. and thank god, back to normal.
i was so tired after that.
phew*
well well well,
today morning went to school for humans and english.
i got B3 for my yu hua paper !! I WAS SO HAPPY...
after that went to polyclinic to meet my mum and bros.
saw rachel and yixian =D waved.
lols.
jus come home from my studies at the senior citizen's place.
the wind so SHOICK.
but change place alot of time..
cos all the ah pek wan to sit.
den dun ka jiao them.
lols =X
went to rm, bought my dad and bros supper =.=
THEY EAT ALOT.
PIGS..
i am satisfied with my production today.
NOT bad.. =D
i love cheryl. =))
tadas !
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anyway, good luck for those taking bio paper tml !
all the best.
=)

this morning intend to wake up at 5.30 to STUDY.
but, i slack until 6.30 den wake up =X
get ready.
hmm.. my hair v difficult to tie.
i dun like to tie my hair.
grrr...
and i dun like how i look when i tied up my hair.
SUCKS man.. =(
alrite. walk to school. reading my notes all the way.
saw cindy n vis.
tried to call them.
but i ps to call loud loud.
so call v soft.
and obviously they cant hear. =.=
so ya, i continue with my notes.
reached school.
nervous. =S
go put my phone in locker.
saw CINDY !
lols. chiong to put my phone in her locker instead.
hahaz.
i give her one riddle.
but dunno is riddle or joke la.
i jus find is v idiotic.
there goes like this:
Do you noe wad an RI student say after their examination?
ans: anything below an A1 is a FAIL for me.
DAMN !
this is given by my tution teacher.
it is kinda lame. =.=
well, yifang and elix have not reach school yet.
panic liao.
den went to call them.
is already 7.45.
and elix still WAITING for bus.
yifang ON the bus.
=.=
hmm.. the chinese paper, rather difficult.
but still managable. =)
i was shivering in the hall.
COLD ~
after that, went down to the canteen check out the girls.
thanks madam aliah, i am really fine now. loveya.
and thanks cass ~ love ya.
went to RM with cindy.
i toking crap all the way.
notice that i am noisy. =X lols.
alright, actually wanted to collect my lens.
but not ready yet.
mum asked me to help her buy things.
after that went home loh.
LATER, i cycling to WY's house ~ lols.
i scare leh.
first time. =)
pray hard that i wont fall ~
go there study. =)
ok.
tadas.
-gone-
rmb to pray hard i wont fall !
02.09pm
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well well, I DID NOT fall.
lols.
successfully reached wy's house.=)
studied some social studies.
and we(me, wy and cass) started to tok.
from some stuffs all the way to prom.
AND we started to measure our breast.
eww.. lols.
we are jus crazy. hahaz.
fun being with them.
i am tried now. =S
alright. tml got humans.
going back school.
OH YA ! tml.. pure chemistry practical ~
to my pure-ies!
ALL the BEST ! =D
MUS DO WELL !! go !! go !! go !!
7.50pm
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DAMN !!!
early in the morning quarrel with my bro.
stupid la.
dun ever command me to do anything !
i am not your maid !
and why should i listen to u ?
i have my own rights !
i am not a small kid anymore.
i have feelings.
FUCK off. [sry for being so vulgar]
actually the real meaning for this word is,
go away: used as an exclamation of impatience. :)
dun wanna say much le.
wanna study chinese for tml Os soon.
jus drop by here to vent my anger.
feeling better. haha.
phew*
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woke up.
done some eng.
ate my breakfast.
studying soon.
ALL THE BEST FOR PPL RE-TAKING CHINESE TML !!
jiayou ~
tada !
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my fave dog, my fave blanket. =)

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this is can-can ~ shermain's rabbit ! lols.

4.00pm-
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u r rite.
i do feel less hurt.
without thinking.
without feeling.
thanks.
i felt love early in the morning.
by my friends around me.
some care, some dun.
i am very clear who are the ones.
well, this is by wy...
"i have a special breakfast for you:
-a glass of CARE.
-a plate of LOVE.
-a spoon of PEACE.
-a fork of TRUST and
-a bowl of HAPPINESS..."
they dunno anything, yet they care.
Once again, thanks.
I LOVE YOU PPL.
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done some chemistry, social studies and amath today.
but all are HALF done.
i am HALF-minded, that's the reason.
thinking: should i go OR should i dun ?
wad will happen if i GO ?
wad will happen if i DUN GO ?
problem solve ? problem worsen ?
i dun noe.
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maybe i should not go.
since they are fine now.
so, maybe i can jus let it be ?
but the problem will still be unsolve...
what should i do ?
can someone help me ?
no one...
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everyday, skipping meals.
sleep early, wake up late.
i did all these jus to avoid.
puffy eyes, water retention...
that's all i can do.
courage !
i used to have it, but not now.
fear phobia !
an additional one.
smile !
being washed away.
when will i have it back ?
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to my pals:
dun ever loss the momentum.
i dun wan this to affect neither of your studies.
your future is in your hand.
so workhard.
n bcos i let go, i blessed u two.
and dun worry about me anymore.
give me some time,
and my smile will forever be there.
and i will be back.
time, i jus need some time.
the guy: u know very well how much u hurt me,
not only me, there are a few.
i know you well enough.
so make sure, u dun hurt the one that u have now.
treasure it, or u will regret.
well, i did not hate you.
but still, i care for you,
cos u r still one of my friends that i really care.
for our friendship, i am not sure..
maybe we really need time...
have you ever treasured our friendship?
for you, i dunooo..
for me, i really did.
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5.14pm

to PINK babe :
your 'hot' photo is not posted on my blog.
is with cass ! hahaz..
check out there PPL !
that photo is REAL 'hot' ! opps.
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this morning went to consult Mr Lin with wy.
PHYSICS.
instead i cancelled my consultation with Mr Tan.
opps.
GET TO KNOW that Mr Lin is Mrs Tung's STUDENT !
AGAIN another physics teacher ~
well, that means i have a chance to be a physics teacher too? =.=
I DUN WAN.
after that, had breakfast with wy in school.
we had our meal for about 30 mins.
that was long.
we were chatting while eating.. HAHAz.
today is also the last day for our sec 1 2 3. GOOD for them.
after that chemistry with ms Widayah.
pls take note for all ppl taking combine chemistry.
PLS FOCUS more on [environment].
REMEMBER.
went to wy house after that with cass.
cass notice i was not in good mood.
=)
she was the first one.
thanks !
someone did care for me.
ya, read some physics,
but falls asleep eventually.
2 hours i guess ~
the weather was nice.
woke up, did some amath.
i did not talk alot today.
i am not me today.
went home with cass.
the journey was so tired.
cass alighted to take 88.
i got off too, decided to walk home.
the weather was cold.
two routes linked to my home.
but i not taking neither of them.
i took the longer route.
jus to avoid everything.
i dun have any courage now.
weak.
phobia.
lost.
not in the mood to do anything.
takecare.
byes.

i deleted the post, and posted a new one.
deleted again and posted a new one again.
i didnt know say wad den is correct or wad den is wrong.
i dun wan to hurt anyone.
i am lost in my world.
nobody is there to help me.
nobody is there to guide me.
nobody is showing me the right path.
i see darkness all around me.
leaving me alone in a cold and lonely room.
i LOVE both of them.
cos they are my pals.
i took the wrong steps.
and caused this thing to happen amg us.
i said those hurtful words.
and cause both of you to be unhappy.
the blame should not be any two of you.
all the blames should go to my childish and imature thinking.
i am still trying hard to learn and to change.
it is difficult.
both of you did try to change me.
but i jus [ take for granted ].
so i am trying real hard now.
i dun wish to break any friendship too.
i dun like this ending.
i wan a happy one.
so i decided to take this new step.
hoping that it is a right one.
i had really taken our friendship for granted.
i have caused it, so i shall mend it.
hope that it will be successful.
]':
well, i have learn to let go everything that had happened amg us.
believe me this time round. for this once, i really let it go.
wadver shit relationship thingy shall end here.
whereas, friendship shall start a new one again.
if both of you allow me to do so,
thanks for giving me this chance to mend it back.
if u dun, sorry is all i can say:(
[we shall NOT dwell over the past,
but look at the present
and hope for the future.]
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anyway, it is roger rabbit's birthday today.
i will not forget you, my friend. lol.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !
and to all pure-ies, all the best for tml's PURE PHYSICS pratical.
RMB bring IC and entry proof. =)
ALL THE BEST !!!!!!

THE NICEST GUY !
henry goh.
everybody agree with me with no doubt, rite ?
hahaz.
why did i say so ?
cos he today did something.
and i find he is so so so nice. hahaz.
no temper, smile FOREVER !
that's him.
AND YA ! tml he is coming to my house ~ woohooo`
together with fang denise n zh.
intensive revison.
but confirm will end up playing or photo taking session de.
lols !
well today, i have a bad flu day. bad hair day too !
in the morning, i was so dead.
tired cum sleepy.
until i saw my girls and HENRY !
lols..
started to play and chat den.
sitting outside the library.
this is wad henry did, when i took out my phone and ask him to pose ~
HE POSED !

hahaz.. so pei he man !
funny !
there are more photos !



this is my bad hair day, LIKE MERLION =.=
well, this is wad happen.
we were sitting outside the library when (our chem tcher)came scolding us.
SHE : '' this is still a school, u better keep your handphone, and whose phone was that ? music was so loud. better switch it off now."
HENRY : " me lah. tcher, so angry for wad ? handphone only mah. "
den he smile =D. hahaz !
but the fact is that it was ME !
den henry kanna nag by HER loh.
thanks, henry ! lols.
SO NICE rite ? lols. he covered for me. hahaz.
YEAH ! tml gonna see my girls and HENRY again. =)
-cheers-
GIRLS/GUYS - friends out there !
KEEP MUGGING !!
DUN ever give up.
RMB, we got to graduate TOGETHER alright ?
smiles =)
-loves-

Happy birthday to you !
Happy birthday to you !
Happy birthday to MUMMY and Elix !
Happy birthday to you !
=)
celebrated my mum's birthday.
wanna wish her "healthy always and live forever !".
quoted from ah b kor kor.
Ellyn jie and shermain joined us.
shermain is so cute !
omg. lols.
jie jie lend me a dress for prom night too.
so i no need to buy.
the dress is so beautiful, even shermain said is it nice !
hahaz.
well, today at ah ma's house,
bro and i was like fighting.
running around the house.
shooting rubber band.
he even do some even MORE disgusting thing. =.=''
shall not list them out here.
ewwww... is so disgusting !
took picture of the dress, but not gonna show here. =)
it meant to be a surprise !
hahaz.
took some pics today.
ENJOY !
ppl~ happy mugging ! i gonna start soon too.

My eye =.=

at my Ah ma's house. bored-a-tion

With my bro's shades.

Forever, zhi lian. my bro ~

His disgusting ear. lols.

Nice pot of plant, by a pro photographer ME !

My childhood PLAYING corner !

FOREVER CUTE GIRL !

DEPRIVED childhood.

pratical is over.
it is rather easy =)
BUT, sad thing is i USED high lighter !
after practical den elix reminded me !
i was damn sad after that.
=(
i wasnt really concentrating on my work this few days.
i am so afriad to hear anything, see anything now.
i am so afriad to get hurt,
AGAIN and AGAIN.
my heart really hurts.
you may wonder why ~
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but i shall not say.
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alright enough of all this 'negative' thoughts of mine.
well, 11 of us having PARTY RELAY ! all the way AFTER prom night to CHALET ~ cool !
and also DRAMA RELAY with cass n wy ~
hohoho `
GOONG GOONG GOONG !!!
rocks man. i love both princes and also crown princess.
they are jus so handsome and cute.
BUT i jus think devil beside you rocks MORE, cos got mike he !
he is my dream guy =)
he got the looks, he got the height. hahaz.
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here's one song to intro you.
mariah carey - butterfly !
When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Verse
I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Bridge
I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the wayit feels to fly
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
Chorus
Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly
So flutter through the sky
BUTTERFLY
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alright, i wan to clarify something.
I AM NOT A FLIRT.
i dun have the material to be a flirt too !
-gone-
i miss you.

here are the photos !!
i love them all ~

Candid shot !! cool !!

MR NAZRI !! =D

ARGH !!
this song kept playing in my head ~
this song plays wherever i go !
i hate it !
i used to love it, but it jus hurt me whenever i hear it.
IT IS PLAYING NOW AGAIN. =.=
heard something today which change my mood on studies totally.
i was working real hard this morning,
but when i get back home.
everything jus changed.
WILD thoughts.
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this morning, went to school for humans for 2 hours.
DEN physics for another one hour.
DEN english consultation for another 1 hour.
Well, i passed for the Monfort EL p1. 38/60 !
i was so damn happy ! hahaz.
finally i can see improvement.
took photos with madam heryati and mrs tan today =D
yea.. with my new phone.N73.
is not that i am rich or wad ks..
is bcos my 2 yrs plan is up and my 6230i trade in for 200 bucks.
so i bought it at 200 plus =D
cheap rite ?
hahaz.
fang changed hers too ! but more ex only..
hehex.
i so bad..
NOW.. was slacking...
think later den go study bah.
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i realised i do give ppl a bad impression of myself.
well, got to apologise to this ppl.
SORRY.
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okays, here are some photos ~
=D



well, was msg-ing until today morning 12 plus.
did one very foolish thing.
i FORGET to set alarm clock ! den i missed today's tution.
haisz...
i actually got lots of qns to consult my tution teacher de leh.
think have to wait until the next lesson.
well, woke up at 9.
use comp awhile.
bath-ed.
set off to PP's kfc to study.
today all JC are having their open house.
saw VJC girls.
they are so cool man.
LOLS.
i did quite alot of revision.
satisfied.
tml going hosiptal to visit my cousin.
OMG, his cancerous cells are increasing.
i pray hard for him.
GET well soon, kor.
mus stay strong !
well, ending here..
takecare everyone..
happy mugging...

cousin jervis and cheryl ! i am so short ! omg.

Elix and cheryl ! love her lots !

Suling and cheryl ! she is so sweet !

more photos coming up ...

QUESTIONS ( from amirah's blog)
1) Single, taken or crushing?
- i prefer single now.

2)Are you happy with your life now?
- satisfied. my Ahs family, frens, family and MIKO ! i love them all.

3)When you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?
- em.. i not very sure, feelings jus come and goes. it is very difficult to predict.

4)Have you ever been heart broken?
- of cos. and is still breaking now.

5)Do you believe that there are some circumstances , where cheating love is acceptable?
- love is trust, without trust love doesnt last long alright ~

6)Would you take someone back even if he cheats you?
- depends on how much i still love him.

7)Have you ever talked about marriage to someone before?
- always to my AHs...

8)Do you want children?
- if i am able, i OF COS wan la.

9)How many?
- 3 most.

10)Would you ever consider adoption?
- if i have the ability, i will.

11)If someone likes you now,what do you think is the best way for him to let you know his feelings?
- he mus be serious. most impt.

12)Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
- not now... maybe 18 ?

13)Do you believe you can change someone?
- i hope i can. but is change for the better..

14)Do you believe in love at first sight?
i used to.

15)If you could get married somewhere,where would it be?
- paris or japan.

16)Do you give in easily when you're fighting?
yes, cos i dun wan any1 to get hurt.

17)Do you have feelings for someone right now?
- hope to forget soon.

18)Do you ever wished you have had someone but you messed it up?
- yes. and i regret.

19)Have you ever broken a heart?
- i dunno..

20)If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you are deeply in love with,what would you do?
- i will definitely give in. cos i dun wan my best friends to be sad... i rather myself being hurt.
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well, just read amirah's blog, the story wad so touching.
go view it when u r free !
one more day to end school.
finally we can mark a full-stop in our secondary school's life.
we shall forget about all the sad memories we had in cvss and carry with us those wonderful and happy memories.
AND I NEEDA thanks this frens of mine !
the AHs.... cherie, wy, sc, cindy, denise, yifang, zen. mella, jy and elix.
frens ! -- cass, re, justina, sl, py, ky, jervis, gary, kc, richard, eeshan, shirley and etc.
u all jus brighten my days. =DD THANK YOU !!!!
thanks for sharing my joy n sorrow together.
special thanks to shu chen ! thank you ! who always be around when i need you the most. =D
and cousin jervis too. thanks for helping me all the time, and saving me from all sorts of troubles, really appreciate it alot. =)
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wont be posting that often le. start mugging le. byes. TAKECARE EVERYONE !

my mood was bad today.
well, woke up in the morning at 8.
get ready to go PP.
on the way saw dom n kamilah.
kamilah is so cute. =)
went PP until 1 plus.
took a bus home.
i was damn unlucky today.
the bus i was boarding broken down.
the smell was so choking.
the bus was full of smoke.
i got the feeling the bus will explode.
but lucky it didnt.
i kept coughing after that.
i am alright now.
the ppl in the bus keep pushing n pushing.
these are singaporean ~
i wonder is it a life n death issue.
at that moment actually many things flash through my mind.
anxiety.
regret.
confusion.
and many many question marks.
gonna go offline n start my intensive revision.
left one more week.
and we will not have any more lessons.
ytd night i thought about it.
and naturally, i teared.
i am going to miss the days i spend with my frens n teachers
those are the wonderful memories.
and i shall forget all those unhappiness.
=D
i love 1i(2003), 2i(2004), 3k(2005), 4j(2006)
and all the frens i made from other classes.
i will miss you guys !
let work hard now ~
GO GO GO !!
cher to amirah: girl, GO GO GO ! keep math-ing. u can do it. and dun ever give up. =D

As usual ~ every friday is AMATH's day.
3 solid hours for amath.
i am dying soon.
well, stand through out for physics lesson.
Some girls n guys was being punishment by ttn,
and i am one of them.
we were being punishment for not asking for permission before going to the toilet.
and we were walking very slowly.
it was NOT our fault alright !
it was the lower sec fault !
they were sitting outside the classroom.
blocking the passage way.
and obstructing us.
poor cherie, was being sent out of the classroom.
cos she could not ans his QN. WTH !
alright enough of school now.
went home rite after school.
cindy came over to use the net.
after that went out to play candles !
met some of our school ppl at the park.
and we started playing together.
amron n vis kept spitting water to set fire ~
but it was fun.
i left early.
left early but dun wanna get home early.
so accompany elix to the 62 bus-stop,
den went back to my bus-stop.
i was kinda scare cos got ''pe pe''.
i was shivering actually.
saw jy on the way.
den sc they all at the bus-stop.
i was kinda walking very slowly.
took 119 back home with sc n her sis.
get back home.
dead tired.
read something which i felt v disturb by it.
thoughts:
well, personally i think memorise are meant to be keep all by yourself.
it was hurting to keep recalling them.
in the end, who get hurts ?
is the one who keep brooding over those memories.
i am not trying to hint anything.
jus saying wad i think bout it.
everyone do have memories.
GOOD n BAD ~
but most imptly is to keep the good ones and forget about the bad ones.
FORGIVE AND FORGET.
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all i wish is to see u living happily and carefree everyday!
i did not ask for more.
jus to see u happy.
i am not the sweetest of all.
i am not the prettiest of all.
i am not the most gentle of all.
i am not the kindest of all.
i am not the most caring of all.
but i hope i am the one who will be there for u
whenever you need someone to talk to.
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i am damn tired.
two consecutive days staying in school from 6.30 am to 9pm.
i am dead tired.
but all i wish for is to get good grades for my Os.
hopefully my efforts pay off.
i had already confirm to go poly.
well, rest of the girls most of them wanna go JC.
will be seperated.
but we promise each other to keep in contact.
=)
now i focus more on my studies n friends.
but sometimes thoughts jus disrupted me when i am studying.
i really getting more n more fustrated.
today heard something that badly affect my mood for the whole day.
i jus wanna say,
i wanna be myself.
everyone will have his/her bad points.
so do i ~
but i will change to compromise..
for a better cheryl.
=)
" talk at the right time,
laugh at the right time.
talk the right thing,
laugh at the right thing. "
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HELLO there!
dere's nth wrg wif my name.
if u think u noe me,
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