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well, got back all my results.
i got all A or B except english.. an E.. hais..
and bcos i fail eng, no three months jc le.
bucking up on eng now ~ very worry..
OK, today woke up. HIGH fever..
damn it..
den BOOM! back to bed..
very giddy..
went to see doc with bros n mum..
TWO DAY MC man ~
and the medicine
but i think i going school tml..
i already miss one phy practical..
cant miss anymore..
slept for the whole day today..
done some revision for geog jus now..
but i jus cant concentrate..
SO BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN...
feeling sleepy now...
this few days, bcos of sick.. i have not been doing any revision..
gonna start tml le..
haisz...
hope that Os will be over soon ~
i cant stand the STRESS le..
ARGH ~
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off !

FLU is killing me ~
my nose is so painful....
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indeed i pass my humans.. not a B3 but B4..
not bad either.. =)
C6 --> B4
great improvement... !!
hehex.
well, i hope i can get well soon. =)
i really hate the feeling of my nose blocking ~
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byes !!

yea ! madam aliah read our blogs !
so yea ~ geog dun sucks ` ROCKS man... hahaz...
well had been working hard on geog nowadays too...
hope i can get a B3 for humans...
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well, this few days.. easily get frustrated..
because of stress ?? hopefully not ~
or other things ??
this few days... had been thinking real hard ~
think n think... hais...
i only can say *******.
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I AM JUS BEING NAIVE !
yes, i fail eng agn. and i thought i can pass.
it is all lies ~
LIES ~
jus so sad today. =(
i am so worry now ~ my eng !
HELP ~
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. CHERYL SUX ~ !!!

hadnt been blogging for the pass few days ~
was busying mugging for prelims..
jus finish one big topic for geog ~
tired.
gonna flunk this paper again.
stupid geog.
nvr study for math paper 2 yet.
haisz.
PRELIMS SUCKS !
but still got three more days ~ 4 more papers !
i GONNA HOLD ON TILL THE END ~
not gonna blog until sunday ~
fri gonna rest.
sat going out with bro's gf. with the girls ? maybe. they not confirm yet. =)
WELL, my mood has been good all the way ~
believe it or not*
but i can confirm that things happen arnd me wont affect my studies.
=D
i am still worried for my english. haisz.
i am feeling the stress now in me. prelims ~
later i think not going to study le. WATCHING TV ! wahahah...
stupid rite...
today went to the pet shop ~
' xiao pu dian ' jus gave birth to three puppies !
omg they are jus so cute !
hahah !!!!
brought miko go cut nails today. =.=
she so.... dan xiao ~ LOL
well, gonna end here !
i jus love MIKO ! muacks !
-signing off-

had been doing revision on physics n chemistry this few days.
ytd went out study.
i can concentrate outside more den at home.
i can be easily distracted at home.
by my damn comp.
this morning, went to school for physics consultation with mr tan.
he keep asking me to use our common sense ~
I DUN HAVE MEH ???
why ME ? hump ! lols.
i got de loh.
jus abit slow mah.
BUT faster den mella. =X
well, after that went home.
meet mella n sc at rm study.
but it only lasted for less den an hour.
LOLS.
we were rather distracted.
so we went home.
sleep for a while.
dreamt of smth sweet to me.
and i regret waking up. =X
woke up in the end. =S
went out study again.
BUT difficult to go toilet.
went to the senior citizen corner there.
FREEZING cold ~
but went home early today, cos i miss my toilet.
hehex.
yea ~ back home again.
comp-ing, chatting ~
i find this song NICE ! touching. meaningful.
ppl, if u wanna hear this song. get it from me. =)
-signing off-

woke up at 7.45 this morning.
getting ready for lesoon in school. geog.
reached school. madam aliah was late..
waited at the stair with the girls..
WARMED !
and i brought sweater. =.=
i was jus being crazy.
i thought we will be going to resource room.
madam aliah reach at about 9.30.
kinda late ar ? lols.
went back to homeroom. sat under the fan.
COOL !
hehex.
drank lots of water today.
geog lesson starts, end at 11 plus.
have our lunch in school.
after that. home-d.
fang elix n cindy came to my house.
PLANed to study. BUT only did for 1 hour..
den we start playing again.
ALWAYs.
took pics.
we curled cindy's hair too. LOLs. NICE !
after that they went home.
i start to day dream in my room again later.
as usual.
but the feeling is great !
waHAHAHA.
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I MISSED JERVIS' OLD HAIR STYLE. =[
he cut again. =.= but also not bad lah now ~ still acceptable. jus abit thinker and shorter den before. but still as handsome as before =) ok ? '' hair will GROW, so dun worry, biao ge '' !! how many times mus i say =.=
SHOPPING ~
today, went to parkway parade wth my n 1bro. he forced me to pierce ear with him. so yea ~ got 6 now ~ =.= acutally dun wan de leh. HE FORCED ! lols. hmmm... he looks more handsome when he pierced. mum also wan to pierce de, but was afraid of pain. LOLS. bought one heels today. kinda retro one ~ NICE ALRIGHT ~ i love it when i saw it ~ '' love at first sight '' =) bought other things too ~ after that took cab down to find dad ~ den have dinner. reached home at about 7plus. done some amathesss. have questions. wonder who to ask. thought of gary ~ den msg-ed him. called him. consult. vis is with him. consult together loh. indeed they are clever! help me solve 2/3 of my doubts. THANK YOU gary n jervis ! elix was watching her show jus now ~ so cant chat with her =[ discussing with vis bout after grad night de thing... kinda fun ~ thought of hotel n chalet ~ which is better, frens ?? yea tml got geog. 9-11. and i am still not sleeping !!! soon le ~ LOLS. buais ! night ! sweet dreams !
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Dreamt of stingray this morning =.=''
i rememered, i was in a hawker. NO ONE dare to eat stingray ~ i asked my dad why ? he replyed : cos they afraid that stingray might kill them !
OMG ~
i cant believe i dreamt of such a ridiculous thing. woke up kinda early today. the weather was good to sleep but i jus cant turn back to my bed. i was tired. but when i woke up, i can nvr go back agn. LOLs. listen to the radio ~ the MUTTONs were toking bout steve Irwin. he is such a brave guy ~ but died so sadly. they even invented a song jus for him ~ is it FUNNY ! steve irwin really earned my respect. i dun think anybody is as brave as him yea ? *disturb animal* hahaz ~ kinda sad when i heard about his death =( stupid stingray ~
YESTERDAY ~
i didnt rite anything bout wad happen ytd` cos PICTURES tell a tousand word =) basically, elix mella came to my house at about 1 plus. start studying both math-es. paused time by time to relax. LOL. we dressed up the la bi xiao in that vis bought for me on my birthday. the pictures taken were so cool ! anyway i am a good photographer alright ! i took lots of nice photos. maybe i can think of being a phototgrapher in future. hmmm... at about 6 plus, went to rm for dinner. I AM SURPRISED that elix was not having her dinner ! lols.. i thought she is slave for food ?? hahaz. mella red-eye had not recover. ad elix made her wear her shades while she was eating ! cruel ! lols. well, i asked mella not to wear in the end. heckcare elix ! lols. wy join us later in the foodcourt. after that back home to study again. played a while studied a while. they went home at about 9plus. well, contacted my long lost friend felicia ! lols. long time nvr see her le. kinda miss her =) i rmb i last since her is when i was p6 ~ haha !
TODAY ~
done with some amath this morning. while listening to the radio` I LOVE 98.7 FM ! wahahaha ~ all the nice songs. i love it ! and it can improve my english ~ which i am still worrying about. mum is back home from market. having breakfast soon ~ den getting ready to go out. will be back at late afternoon ~
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*after tution*
~got home, rest, com-ed, chat-ed.
~nothing special going on.
~viewing some friendster profile
~saw one couple, been together for two years, one in sp, one in aus`
~their LOVE are so strong.
~TOUCHED.
~the video in their profile are so touching. i was moved by them. ='(
~i can jus only envy them
~around 4 plus getting ready to go out for dinner at east coast.
~with my family.
~FULL-ed. nice dinner.
~saw alot of ang-mos,but not handsome de *sadded*
~walk around the beach alone.
~nice breeze.
~love strolling !
~love the feeling of being alone thinking bout stuffs. day-dream too. =) iLOVEit.
~but sometimes, i do think that being alone SUCKs !
~cos make u think of stuffsthat should not think of.
~saw one group of children playing with sand.
~feel like joining them.
~feel like visitng sentosa again. hmm ~
~came back home about 8 plus.
~rushing home for toilet.
~the journey back home was so long.
~everyone chiong for toilet when we step into our house.
~LOLS.
~online now, chatting with elix.
~ABOUT HUNKS !
~tml mella n her coming to my house. study cum chatting cum playing. opps=X
~elix is now crazying over the seventeen hunks ~ who actually msg-ed her!
~LOLS !
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-I SWEAR ! i let go-

MISSING YOU !!!! -by 1st lady.
introduced to me by melisa, thank you ~
Hmmmmm hmmmmm
Oh I'm missin' you
Baby I'm missin' you
Mmm eyyy hmmm
Baby I'm missing you
Things'll never be the same with out you.....
What did I do to deserve this
I didn't even get one last kiss, from you
Oh baby God took your love from me
He needed an angel so it seems
I need to feel your hands all over me
I need to feel you kissing me
I need to feel you holding me
I need to feel your touch
Cause I miss your love so much
And I can't keep on living this way
I need you here with me
Why could he take you away, from me
It's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
I would've given you anything
Just to make you happy
Just to hear you say, that you love me one last time
I'd go to hell and back over and over again
Just to prove to you how much I need you here
There is nothing that I wouldn't do
I'd cry for you
I'd lie for you
And there's no doubt that if I could take your place in heaven
I would die for you, yes I will
I would rather give up my life
Than to see tears in your eyes
I can't stand to see you cry
Cause it's hard for me to tell you I love you
As I'm standing over your grave
And I know I'll never hear your voice again
Why did you leave me
Why couldn't you just stay babe
Because my world is nothin', without you
Now I don't know what to do, with myself
I just dont know what to do with myself
I cant stand looking at those pictures on my shelf
Knowing it was just one week ago, that i stood there and took that picture
There just one thing that I want to know
Why would God want to hurt me so bad,
Does He know how much it hurts to be missing you
Baby Im missing you
Baby Im missing you
I love you
ooohh God damn it I love you
Why did he did he take you away from... me
Cause I love you so...
I miss you so much baby I just cant go on baby
Ohhhh oh
this is really a nice song. i really love it. it is so damn touching ='(. hahaz ~ jus woke up. after this, gonna prepare to go for tution. i am tired. this morning i dreamt of SOMETHING ! but kinda forget le ~ ARGH !! something real sweet leh. but i am jus so STM !! haisz..needa woke hard this week le. prelims are coming ! hey, ppl ! dun keep on playing le ! rmb to study yea ?? although it is jus prelims but it is also v impt =) JIA YOU !!

5th of September, Shermaine's BIRTHDAY !
celebrated with her today instead. =)
Morning ~
woke up at 7.45am. dreamt of smth sweet this morning. when for physics consultation. mella got a red eye =( got well soon mella ! =D lbought a bi xiao xin LATEST dvd !!! whooo ~
Home ~
got home ~ watch one dvd ! NICE ! laugh all the way ~ wahahahhaha... after that online chat awhile den offline. intend to start with physics den mum say go ah ma house. at first i say '' dun wan lah. u all go. i wan study '' *act guai* DEN, after they went, around 4 plus. *miss shermain* so went down loh. 2bro say come fetch me. on the way there, i almost met with an accident. o.O lucky my 2bro break on time. phew* or else i wont be here anymore.
Ah ma's house ~
have lots of fun there ! =D shermain is so cute ! i bought her a swimming costume as a present for her =) she was so damn happy ~ she also v sweet loh. my 2bro ask her go beat me. but she come tell me '' i wont beat u de. '' den give me a smile =) sweet girl. she done alot of funny things today. too many to list it out now ~ before going home, we cut a cake ~ sang her birthday song. she so PS lols !! CUTE SIAX ! took pics too ~ but is in my bro's phone. will upload here when i got hold of the pics =))) simply love her so much ! jus got home ~ tired. starting physics again SOON ~ got the feeling this prelim i am not gonna do well ~ =( too many things happened.
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-when a person scold u = they care for you-
-when a person dun even tok or scold u = they HECK care you-
-SO ppl, a simple word of engouragement really make a difference for me-
-THANK YOU !-
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I HATE DURIAN'S SMELL !!!
But i just ate 4 seeds of it. HEHEx. love the taste, HATE the smell. weirdo~
Start off ~
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY !! to all my teachers, be it only just taught for a few months or few days. jus wanna say THANK YOU to them. esspecially my P2-P5 tution teacher, Mrs dillion, whom i lost contact with. she is now in Aus, but jus cant contact her. i really miss her ='(.
This month doesnt start off well for me. kinda bad ~ indeed this week really bad for me. i dun wish to have anymore puffy eyes. gonna stop from now, cos i already let go ALL the past. and start a fresh for me. =) cos i noe some ppl around me still care for me. thank you !
Dinner ~
went dinner jus now with my dad mum n 2nd bro. i didnt really tok for the whole dinner. only when they bring up ytd thing which happened btw me n my elder bro. kinda angry. My 2nd bro sided me. and only he will ~ my dad is neutral. mum sided my elder bro. argh ~ but lucky i still have my 2nd bro. he is the one who really understand me. understand how a teenager feels. thank you ! feeling down ~ i drank some beer ` and they allowed. feeling abit better. i wish i can drink more. so that i can forget everything. Don't u think so ? =D teared during the tok too ~ feeling angry, sad, touched, moved. my 2nd bro told me that he really hope i can now think whether wad thing is the most impt de. my dad : u are my only hope. ='(. indeed i was his only hope. and i feel stress. they encouraged me to continue to work hard towards the end of Os. THANK YOU ! I LOVE YOU PPL ! i will continue to live on.
Home ~
gonna start with physics soon. tml consulting mr tan ~ meeting the girls ` JIA YOU PPL !! always be happy ! =DDD smile more often.
-i dun wanna lose my best fren-

hmm.. ytd rite after school ~ went to cp with the girls to play true or dare` LOLS. FUN ! but =X
hahaz..
after that go home, went to rp study with gary.
actually is i go alone de..
den he say come accompany me. that's so nice of GARY !
thanks ! lols..
this handsome ar, nvr study..
the air-con there is so cold.
while we were toking i saw his lip trembling. LOLS !
i laugh ~ yea..
We TOK alot.. about anything n everything..
non-stop i can say.. hahaz.. nice chat though. =)
he is a good observer ~
cos he found that i am not in good mood for many days le ... =) thank you..
he cheer me up. LOL..
NICE guy rite ??
so girls ~ ALERT !
lols.. he one of my best fren la. hahaz.
den after that go home loh.
msn-sms- GRADING !
wanna noe more aobut the grading ? asked me.. LOL
This morning woke up, feeling down. =( dunno.
no mood to do anything..
went to tution.
drag myself ~
back home now ~
but going out to hougang later with my mum.
i am feeling tired this few days.
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- i am not that lucky as u, cos i am not as sweet as u -

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